beening on ur own

[unicorn]

I do have a wife that trys to undersand me but its hard for her I would love for ppl on here to get to know me I know I'm mad but I'm not mad all the time I promise lol xxxxx

[OnlyMe]

I'm sorry your wife doesn't understand you! Don't worry everyone is mad on here, especially JO! LOL sorry had to be said mate! I would love to get to know you! Do you know why you feel so alone? Do you go out much? Chin up chicken
take care xxxxxxxx

[unicorn]

I'm going to put up some poems I wrote last night when I was down what I mean when my head went it I wanted to take a over does and cut my self!!!

[OnlyMe]

your poems are a real insite into your life. It's good to let all those feelings flow out, then maybe you wont have to do those terrible things. Its all about control and finding other ways to express yourself, you will find otherways i promise you. just never give up trying. Life can get much better! suicide is NEVER the answer to anything.
Thinkin of you xxxxxxxxxxx

[PurplySparkleyJoey]

Hello Ladyzzzz ... Gem .. hun ... mate .. HA HA! your soooo right!! ;D ;D

Uni, its hard keeping your chin up when there are so many things bringing you donw, i do truly understand that. I spent most of my teenage years in and out of *phyco* thripy cos i was just soooo depressed it took years for things to change but they did.
I trying to take my life ... as you can see, i didnt try very bloomin hard!! But it doesnt do anything exept put the people you love in to the depressave state your in now. You have to think about your wife and child who would have there world MORE than turned upside down by it. Its an extremly selfsih act to carry out no matter what the situation.

I know of a young lady who is 18, she found her first tumor when she was 8 and had been fighting canser for the lasy ten years. She has had in every where, in most of her major organs .. she FIGHTS FOR HER LIFE every day ... i dont think it would be fair to take yours when she so despratly wants to live.

I hope you are well and that your not too low at the moment.
Take care and talk to your wfie about this stuff!! She cant understand unless you explain.
Jo xx

[unicorn]

Thanks ladies for ur answers one the thing that helped the most is when Taz got me to right poems when I have mt ups and downs and for that I thank her as it stoped me diong anything the other night xxxxxxxx

[Taz]

I really can understand how you feel as yes i have attempted suicide myself and jo is so rite it only hurts the ppl who really care about you and there are people who want to live that have to fight for it!!
anyway at least you are lucky enough to have someone close to you! I don't all i have is the people i talk to on here and my parents but they don't really count!! lol
I have one friend and shes great but i dont see her or talk to her much so are you very lucky!
chin up chicken!
Taz xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[PurplySparkleyJoey]

Taz, im glad to hear you can talk about your experiance in such a positive way. Its good you can change your experiance from a negitive into a teaching tale for other people!!
Your soo right about it hurting other people and its good you can see that now.
Close friend are really important but they dont have to be friends from work or so on .. they can be people on line or may be even a phone help line like the smaratons?
Im thinking of you all

[OnlyMe]

i totally understand what u are sayin Jo. In my local hospital, the bays on the ward are split up into adolesent bay, baby bay etc. I was in the adolesent bay for a long time and alot of the ppl where there because of attempted suicide. It was very hard to look across the room and see some1 who tried to end there life. After all i'd been through and watched others going through it made me quite angry! The difference in ppls attitudes to life just seems so wrong! Not just that, it really does cost alot to treat these ppl, especially if they do it regular. Some that I talked said they did it so they could come in2 hospital??? It must be very hard for them, but there really is other ways round it, and if u truely hav 2 do it carry a bloody donar card and make yourself usefull!!!

[PurplySparkleyJoey]

I think thats well said petal, i have a friend whos father has been diognosed with terminal canser. He has spent the last year or so fighting with his life, in and out of hosptial, trying treatments and drugs so that he can spend as much time with his family as possible. He has 2 daughters both with long turm partners .. he wants to see them marrire, have kids and watch his wife grow old. But he will never get that, he was given 3 month over a year ago so every day he wakes up alive is a blessing.
When i hear young people talking about taking there life it makes me so sad, but more than anything angry .. we ALL have problems, some people more than others. And i know that depretion is an illness .. its a chemical imbalance but no matter what doctors tell you this can be over come.
People have much more to live for than they think they do and after a while you get fed up of expaining to people that they are loved and cared about.
Having suffered from depretion my self i DO know what im banging on about here .. and i am out the other side after trying to take my life my self.

And like Gem rightly said .. if you are going to waste the time you have on earth .. abandon your friends and family .. then CARRY A DONNA CARD!!

[OnlyMe]

See there you go, Jo is living proof that depression can be beaten! Your life is what you make it, don't waste it being sad!
I'm sorry bout your friends Dad, he's truely a brave man.