just waiting 4 my turn..

[OnlyMe]

just waiting 4 my turn......

I said I'd had enough,
So you told me to be strong.
You said things would get better,
But I swear I can't hold on.

I want it all to end.
I cant be this tough.
I'm sick of being ill,
And feeling really rough.

No more taking me to hospital,
For there's nothing they can do.
No more needles, tubes nor medicines,
For I'm just standing in the queue.

Just waiting for my turn,
Like waiting for a bus.
Just hanging in-between,
And getting sick of all the fuss.

I hate you being by my bed,
When I open up my eyes,
Saying everything will be OK.
But I know that it's all lies.

Everyone is suffering,
Each time that I get ill.
Each time gets even longer,
And even worser still.

I want to believe in miracles.
I wish that they were true.
I pray each day to be better.
I want to change things just for you.

But now I have no hope.
No reason to carry on.
I'm tired and I've had enough,
This fights gone on too long.

[Taz]

Oh thats was so moving and made me all tearful hunny please don't be alone in this time of need I'm here for you and so is joey and fran so please shout me if you need anything
lots of love and gentle hugs
Taz xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[OnlyMe]

thank you!!!!! but dont worry its cool! ill b ok! love ya xxxxx

[phoenix]

please please PLEASE! don't give up! that proves alots because you still have your talents and your mind. I'm sorry if you do not think I should not say anything but, you peom was so moving, sad, and real that i had to say something! Never give up please!

God bless you

love Liz

(I hope you don't mind I wil pray for you) xxx

[PurplySparkleyJoey]

Gem, angel, you have no idea how much that made me cry.
You are such a special friend to me .. in fact, i consider you one of my BEST friend.
I know how hard the last few weeks have been for you .. and although i have no idea how it really feels .. i have seen how its been affecting you.
Being ill is hard, its hard on every one around you ... but mostly its hard on you.
Its not just the feeling ill, its the feeling of responcibility for causing problems for your family & friend .. or letting people down.
THIS IS NOT TURE
Gem, you are ill ... sick .. no one really knows why or how ... but its there & NOT CAUSED BY YOU!!
Your family and friends love you more than any one else in the world and DONT CARE how bad things get .. they will ALWAYS
You have to understand that when you worry about us or your other friend .. we worry 40x that much about you!!
You HAVE to hold on Gem .. you HAVE to .. you have no idea what youwould leave behind ... i personally would be devestated & i'v only knowen you a few months!!

Every one has rough time .. you just have truckin rough times but most people get though them & go on to have better time. Your better time is on its way angel ... you just have to hold on in there.
Any way ... who wil i take to buttlins with out YOU!!??

Gem, im going to call you now!!
I love you soooooooooo much, please dont ever forget that.
Jo xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Taz]

Hunny I'm always here for you !
I know your strong and will make it through but its still nice to know ppl care!
love always Taz xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[OnlyMe]

thanx so much guys! u mean so much 2 me! i wont give up i promise, i guess i was jus annoyed wen i wrote this poem! hope everyones had a fab crimbo, mine was quite pooey cant wait 4 it 2 be over!

dont worry about me joey PLEASE!! im gonna b fine, im goin in 2 hav tests 2 crohn's diseease in the new year - the good thing is i didnt get accused of it being in my head woooo! i hope u r keeping well, ive tried ringing but i gt ur machine i will try again soonn i promise! take care sweetheart love u lots xxxxx